Willl it ever begin??

I had the best tasting dinner ever. I had potato crusted fish with veggies. Now I made a deal with the boys (all of them) that if we went out to dinner they didn't have to live by the veggie diet, so the boys convinced nana to eat dinner with us at Bob Evans... now even though the dinner wasn't the healthiest food it did taste GREAT! According to the kids their food was good as well.


I also wanted to let everyone know that I am losing the calmness of my life. I have to always be doing something. Normally this is okay because their are tons of things that need done, however while waiting for food isn't one of those times. I got upset because I forgot to bring my crochet into the restaurant with me. Rob wonders when I'm going to learn to just relax.


I will being to learn to cook veggie soon.... I'm so torn as to if it's the best plan of action. So many people are telling me that soy is bad, and tofu is bad, and that beans (which my kids hate) will replace anything. Why can't we (as a society) not make things that aren't good for you. I mean I have even been linked that agave sweetener isn't good for you. So if sugar isn't good for you and sweeteners aren't good for you what's left. I'm tempted to grow my own sugar cane and process it myself.... no that's to much work! I will live with what I have for now.

Why is it so hard for me to accept anything. I want to be 'slapped' in the face with the answer in order for me to believe it. Why won't HE just hit me over the head, say go to this church or that bible study, hang out with those friends, stay away from that temptation. Eat this and don't eat that.... Please slap me and just make it so clear GOD. Where do I start to find the answers.... I am told to just open my bible, and I did and stared at pages with not direction on what to read.